Let me be your fantasy….

So what IS my deepest, darkest sexual fantasy, you ask…

My answer to you is… STRANGER/STRANGER SEX!

This is, has been, and always will be kept as a fantasy to be enjoyed only in my mind. As much as I am tempted, I would never put myself in such a position of potential danger. Especially in this day and age of psychopaths, rapists, murderers, serious std’s, and AIDS.

But just THINKING about this type of uninhibited sex with strangers makes me wetter than a rainy day in the tropics!

And of course, I mean BAREBACK sex with strangers! (Why not, since it’s only a fantasy in my mind? )

This particular fantasy of mine started back when I was 18 or 19 or thereabouts. I remember, because my then boyfriend (and first lover) had a collection of Playboy, and other porn magazines strewn around his house and while he was busy out in the garage, I was busy in his bedroom getting off to various magazine articles, forums, and hot pics!

I remember, in particular, a couple of Hustler articles (with pics, of course! ) about these bars that held amateur stripper contests. And about the women who participated and then got carried away by the enthusiastic response of the bar crowd when they started masturbating on stage and encouraging the bar patrons to join in with them… The horny men would literally line up to finger, lick, and fuck that one very horny woman! OMG! I would imagine that I was her, that dozens, or even hundreds, of horny men of all ages, races, shapes and sizes wanted to fill me with their hot cum!

Through the years, this fantasy in my mind grew a life of its own. Not only would I keep replaying that hedonistic bar scene over and over and over, but I would add to and embellish it… Not only horny straight men would use me for sex, but now horny women would too! I loved to imagine a woman French-kissing me, eating me, fingering me, making me cum… Or multiple people (male and female) using me all at the same time… Dozens of hands, tongues, and cocks all over and in my body! Swimming in the hot sticky love juices of so many people in one session!

Then one night on some TV talk show (I don’t remember which one), they interviewed a woman who was making a porno where she would be fucked by 1,000 men! OMG! I almost came just hearing about it! I could only imagine what that would be like: 1,000 “strange” cocks and cum in me!

Back in reality land, I’ve only actually experienced “strange” sex a couple of times, both many years ago, both times with only one person in relatively safe conditions. Was it as hot as my fantasy? HELL, YES!!!

In a different, safe world I would want to fuck just about any and every person I come in contact with! In this real world, however, I realize that if I ever tried to do this, I would likely be dead in a month. If a murderer or AIDS didn’t get me, I would simply die from exhaustion! But what a way to go!

BBW facesitting

Obviously im bored today. I guess that comes from hurting myself and being stuck in the house… esp as its snowing too as i know id go arse over tit.

So on my twitter account i get asked a lot about facesitting. To be honest its never really appealed to me especially as im a very big girl and id hate to be up on some sort of charge because id suffocated some one to death lol

So i thought id look up the whole fetish thing and this is my conclusion to the whole thing..

1. Release of control – for the person being sat on, it is about relinquishing control into the hands of their “mistress”. Their life and quite literally the air that they breath is left up to whomever is sitting on them, be it their chest, face or body. When someone has an arse as big as mine…just half of my weight would  completely cut off the ability to move from under me or catch air unless I lifted off enough to do so. Many times the release of control is by a “Sub” who holds a powerful position in business/life OR has to maintain control in their “vanilla” daytime activities. They need a place to release and someone to forcibly take control out of their head and hands.

2. Surrounded by Mistress’ essence – It’s also about being completely enveloped by the scent of a woman. Your head and torso is so completely encased within thick, massive thighs, that every time you inhale, you inhale her. Personally, I like to shower before anyone is going down there , however some of you naughty slaves like the heady scent of a woman after she’s worked up a sweat through out the day….

3. Pressure – Can you imagine what’s it’s like to have 400  pounds of massive arse sitting full weight on your chest or face? I guess the seat would prefer someone who is bottom heavy  which is why i often wonder why iv been asked as im obviously top heavy. The seat loves the feeling of the immense pressure that a body puts on them as the lady would  sit, lie or stand. It seems like most people into BBW Facesitting enjoy the pressure and it plays a bigger role than what you see in skinny women facesitting.

4. Arse worship – I believe it is also about paying homage to the woman and more specifically the body part she uses to give such pleasure/pain. Not that facesitting is specifically painful. . which again makes me question why me??? Yes i have a large arse but i thought id get more messages about boobie worship.

5. Smothering – Being smothered between massive thighs and buttocks is an overwhelming sensation. Or so iv been told.

6. Extreme squashing/buttdrops – And then for those that REALLY like to test their limits, there is squashing and buttdrops. Some subs not only love to have  400 pounds dropped hard on their bodies but they even like it to be dropped on their face!

I will be honest id never heard of buttdrops  myself so all in all a very educational day